The wait is over.
On Wednesday, Adele announced that her new album, 30, will be dropping on Nov. 19 — and from the looks of her latest Instagram post, it’s sure to be one of her most personal albums yet.
“I was certainly nowhere near where I’d hoped to be when I first started it nearly 3 years ago,” she writes of the album. “Quite the opposite actually. I rely on routine and consistency to feel safe, I always have. And yet there I was knowingly — willingly even, throwing myself into a maze of absolute mess and inner turmoil!”
“I’ve learned a lot of blistering home truths about myself along the way,” she continued. “I’ve shed many layers but also wrapped myself in new ones. Discovered genuinely useful and wholesome mentalities to lead with, and I feel like I’ve finally found my feeling again. I’d go as far as to say that I’ve never felt more peaceful in my life. And so, I’m ready to finally put this album out.”
The album — which is all about “divorce, baby, divorce,” as she told a fan during an Instagram Live over the weekend — acted as her saving grace while she healed from grief following her divorce from ex Simon Konecki, which was finalized earlier this year.
“It was my ride or die throughout the most turbulent period of my life,” she said of the writing process. “When I was writing it, it was my friend who came over with a bottle of wine and takeaway to cheer me up. My wise friend who always gives the best advice. Not to forget the one who’s wild and says, ‘It’s your Saturn return babes fuck it, you only live once.’
“The friend who’d stay up all night and just hold my hand while I’d sob relentlessly not knowing why. The get up and go friend who would pick me up and take me somewhere I said I didn’t want to go but just wanted to get me out the house for some vitamin D. That friend who snuck in and left a magazine with a face mask and some bath salts to make me feel loved while inadvertently reminding me not only what month it actually was but that I should probably exercise some self-care!”
She added, “And that friend who no matter what, checked in on me even though I’d stopped checking in with them because I’d become so consumed by my own grief. I’ve painstakingly rebuilt my house and my heart since then and this album narrates it. Home is where the heart is x.”
In an interview with Vogue, Adele explained that 30 wasn’t just for her, but also for her 9-year-old son, Angelo.
“I just felt like I wanted to explain to him, through this record, when he’s in his twenties or thirties, who I am and why I voluntarily chose to dismantle his entire life in the pursuit of my own happiness,” she said, adding of the whole experience, “It made him really unhappy sometimes. And that’s a real wound for me that I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to heal.”
“If I can reach the reason why I left… if I can find that happiness and he sees me in that happiness, then maybe I’ll be able to forgive myself for it,” she added. “I want my son to see me really love, and be loved. It’s really important to me… I’ve been on my journey to find my true happiness ever since.”
“It just wasn’t… It just wasn’t right for me anymore,” she said of her marriage. “I didn’t want to end up like a lot of other people I knew. I wasn’t miserable miserable, but I would have been miserable had I not put myself first.”
“I feel like this album is self-destruction… then self-reflection and then sort of self-redemption,” she explained. “But I feel ready. I really want people to hear my side of the story this time.”